I promise I won't be posting this often in the future! I have debated with myself for a while on whether or not to share this much, but my whole purpose of sharing our experience is to possibly help someone else who is struggling with the same thing. So this next post is just to catch you up to where we are now in this whole baby journey. I wrote this on 2/25/16, so don't miss the update at the end!
"Yesterday was a bad day. It had been 15 days since I stopped taking the progesterone and still no period. Even though I was sure I wasn't pregnant, I knew I needed to take a pregnancy test before calling the doctor's office to see what's going on. So as soon as I woke up, I peed in a cup and took the dreaded test. I hate taking pregnancy tests! (As I'm sure I have mentioned before.) I mentally and emotionally try to prepare myself each time before to not be surprised or sad by a negative result. Sometimes it kind of works and other times it completely fails. Yesterday was a "completely fail" kind of day... So I had a good cry sesh before work, put on my big girl pants, and left for the day. Not a great start to the day.
At lunch, I called the nurse at my doctor's office and explained my being off the progesterone for 15 days and still no period. Sure enough, the first thing she suggested was for me to take a pregnancy test. I told her I already had that morning and it was negative. Then she said, "Oh." Not the conversational, high-pitched "oh!", but the blunt, "oh, we have a problem" type of "oh." That's never a good sign...
The nurse said she wanted to talk to my doctor (we'll call him Dr. L), and then she'd call me back. So for the next hour I tried to calmly and patiently sit at my desk, waiting to hear back. Finally, she called back to tell me that Dr. L wanted to prescribe me with Premarin, which is estrogen. I'll have to take the Premarin for 21 days and then take the progesterone for 10 days. Then my period should start within 7 days after stopping. If not, call the nurse again. I'm hoping I don't get to the point where I have to have the doctor's office on speed dial! Anyway, so what was the first thing I did after hanging up with the nurse? Googled Premarin of course! That was probably the worst thing I could have done because the first thing it listed under what it is prescribed for is menopause symptoms and the prevention of postmenopausal osteoporosis! I know that I'm not a spring chicken, but I'm not that old! Still in my 20's thank you very much!
So as everything began to sink in, I couldn't help but feel overwhelmed, impatient, and a little bummed. Just the realization of the fact that I probably wouldn't have a period for over a month and if I do, it'll be another week or two before I have the possibility of ovulating. Also meaning that the chances of having a baby in this calendar year are slim, which shouldn't be a big deal, but it feels like one.
Anyway, so after work, I stopped by the pharmacy to pick up the Premarin. I found out that for 21 pills it would be about $100! And I know this could just be the beginning of the expenses... It just feels so unfair that I have to pay $100+ just to have a period! Ladies, never resent your periods again! I seriously feel like I am 50 years old or something!
Moving on... The day did get a little a better. I went home to some beautiful, brightly-colored flowers and a husband cleaning the long over-due bathroom. If anyone knows my husband, you know he is the sweetest, most thoughtful person who never gets mad. I think when you marry someone, you obviously know or can see what kind of a person they are, but it's when you go through something like this, you can really see them shine. He has been my light and my support through all of this. Whenever I just need to vent or cry, he is there to listen. Whenever I am feeling negative, he always points out the positive and makes me see the blessings we have. And whenever I need to laugh, he is always there acting silly even if it only makes me smile sometimes. So even though this has been the hardest thing I have had to go through, I am so grateful to have the best companion by my side and love knowing that he will be there no matter what."
"A Trial is Just a Precursor to a Great Blessing." -unknown
$100 Pie
Ingredients:
1 pkg. Oreos
2 sticks butter
2/3 cup packed brown sugar
1 1/4 cups heavy whipping cream, divided
1 bag semi-sweet chocolate chips
Sea Salt
Directions:
1. Crush the Oreos with a food processor or blender. Stir crumbs together with 1 stick melted butter until well combined. Press into the bottom of a tart pan (or pie pan). Freeze crust for 10 minutes until set.
2. Combine remaining stick butter and brown sugar in a small sauce pan. Cook over medium heat, stirring constantly with whisk, until mixture begins to bubble. Continue cooking and stirring for 1 minute. Remove from heat. Slowly whisk in 1/4 cup heavy whipping cream until smooth. Cool caramel about 15 minutes. Pour the caramel into the Oreo crust and return to the freezer for 30-45 minutes until just chilled and set. (Don't let the caramel fully freeze.)
3. Place chocolate chips in a glass bowl. In a saucepan, bring 1 cup heavy whipping cream to a simmer over medium-high heat. Pour the cream over the chocolate chips and let sit for 5 minutes, then stir until completely smooth. Pour the chocolate over the caramel and freeze for a final 30 minutes, until just chilled and set. Before serving, sprinkle the top with sea salt.
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